Monday, December 27, 2010
just realize
♥ 7:50 AM
so I just realized how dull and sad this blog is. cause I always talk about sad things here and I think it makes me look bad and dull cause it seems like Im sad almost all the time? hahahaha. well I kinda feel like this blog is a place for me to throw all these sad feelings away. so if you're tired of reading all my crap, you dont have to visit this page cos you might just end up commiting suicide for being too sad. haha apakan.
so again... i feel really down over this one thing. its the school holiday where we have months off from school. but holidays shouldnt mean that all friendships and relationships should take a little "vacation" too. get it?
since thats happening, I'm just doing what everybody else is doing. ignoring and moving on.
&when will you take me away on a balloon?
Tuesday, December 21, 2010
make the clock reverse
♥ 8:20 PM
so its the holidays and I havent seen my school friends for a month now I think. I thought that the holiday would make everyone closer to the heart. when we see each other everyday in the morning, we always have stories to share, gossips to talk about. we always have something new to talk about. and now that we're on our holiday, we should have more things to talk about to our friends who have been distant for a very long time. but i guess i was wrong. facebook's not doing any help at all, neither is msn. all of us are on the line, but no one's saying "hi" to anyone. everyone's too busy with their own lives that they cant even spare a little time for their old classmates. whats happening to everyone? why is everyone going to their separate ways when they kept on repeating to myself on how they'd miss everyone in the class. what the hell is going on here?
&when will you take me away on a balloon?
Monday, November 22, 2010
bahagia not so much
♥ 2:16 PM
it took me almost 2 hours to type down every single thing that I had in mind, but I erased everything. this will be the last of me. bye.
&when will you take me away on a balloon?
Thursday, November 11, 2010
she who feels it, knows more
♥ 11:08 PM
I was about to fall asleep just a few minutes ago, but then I had an urge to blog. soooo I've been feeling different lately. I don't really know what caused me this way, but yeah, it's happening alright! :( I've been dealing with moodswings lately and I just hate it. I don't know, maybe pms is coming, maybe it isn't but it's affecting me real bad. :( and other people too -- and I'm really sorry about that.
I wish I could open up here, express everything that I've been keeping inside for the past couple of weeks, but I just can't.
have you ever felt so blue in a sudden? one minute you're smiling, the next minute you just feel like breaking down and cry yourself to sleep -- have you ever felt that way? sigh. I just don't know why I've been really emo over the past couple of days. sure you may see me "haha" all the way, but you just don't have a clue.
I really wish I could open up here, but I don't feel secure. I wish I could talk to someone about this, but I know it'll come back again and again and I'd be back to square one. so the best solution is just for me to keep quiet, and keep it together! :) I just don't know how much longer I can deal with this. it has really affected me emotionally and physically but I'm sure they don't give a shit. they're too happy within the circle. sigh
I need a getaway. but on the other hand, I just gotta keep track on them. I just miss them so much. I'm really glad having mkhy there for me always no matter what but it's just not enough. I feel so incomplete haha palui palui
don't tell me not to think about it because I just can't. k!
I think I need therapy again.
&when will you take me away on a balloon?
Saturday, November 6, 2010
Ramlah Hussin
♥ 10:50 PM
MOMMA TURNS 47! I LOVE YOU MAMA!!!!!!!!!!!
MAY YOUR LIFE BE EXTENDED TIL THE WORLD COMES TO AN END,
MAY ALLAH BLESS YOU ALWAYS,
CAUSE YOU DESERVE EVERY BLESSING!
XOXO
&when will you take me away on a balloon?
I hate changes
♥ 8:42 PM
show some love, a little bit of appreciation! :@
&when will you take me away on a balloon?
Monday, November 1, 2010
when the lights go out
♥ 11:47 PM
FIRST THING I WOULD LIKE TO POST IS.......
HAPPY BELATED 17TH BIRTHDAY HONEY!! :D isn't she pretty? I hate her for being super gorgeous :P nada wah, you know I love you mi. this girl right here, is Syamimi Yana. she's one of the best among the best ones. she's just awesome! like me :P
so she officially turned 17 two days ago and sadly I couldn't come to her party, so from the bottom of my heart, I really am sorry. I've been skipping every function you invited me to, so I'm really sorry :( :( hugs hugs! but I'm looking forward to celebrating her belated birthday after the exams are over. hehehehe :D with the other girls.... I hope....
hmmmmm
K!
so, I sat for maths 4024/12 earlier this afternoon. it was alright, I guess? mudahan tah ku pass. just for this once wah! PLEASEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE~~~~~~~~ :( :( :( :'(
it's almost 12am.
2nd November is coming.
=
19 months
k bye.
&when will you take me away on a balloon?