Sunday, March 28, 2010
strawberries aren't sweet, hello.
♥ 12:28 PM
Jerudong Park was rainy! didn't get the chance to take photos :(
I can't stop listening to this certain song whicccch I am not going to mention here. :P it might cause a big damage to.... hehehe okay. :D I am super super bored right now.
Khairul is away, makan saja kerajanya. awwww. wish I could pinch your cheeks right now baby. makin chubby sudah macam his girlfriend! :8)
oh and I am so overwhelmed that his mommy suruh ia register to Maktab Duli. wheeeeeeeeee~ :D why?
because I'm going there next year, Amin. and because..... :) I'm just glad he didn't go to PTEKatok. hehehe. thank goodness. :) haha, bah adang.
I had math class early in the morning, 9-10.30am. as expected, the teacher was thirty minutes late. and
zakeah didn't come so I had an empty chair beside me. :( we learnt inverse matrices. easy peasy lemon squeezy! :D I kinda love it, cos it involves a little bit of algebra. coolio :)
"the promise we've made to be together forever what ever no matter till the end of the world." - E.
oh yeah? please rot in hell for saying that. such a big fat liar -_-"
&when will you take me away on a balloon?
Saturday, March 27, 2010
my dear?
♥ 10:00 PM
I don't want this moment to ever end Where everything's nothing without youI'll wait here forever just to, to see you smile
'Cause it's true, I am nothing without youThrough it all, I made my mistakes
I stumble and fall, but I mean these words
I want you to know
With everything I won't let this go, these words are my heart and soul
I'll hold on to this moment you know, 'cause I'll bleed my heart out to show
That I won't let go
Thoughts read unspoken, forever in doubt
Pieces of memories fall to the ground
I know what I didn't have so, I won't let this go 'Cause it's true, I am nothing without youAll the streets where I walked alone, with nowhere to go
have come to an end
I want you to know
With everything I won't let this go, these words are my heart and soul
I'll hold on to this moment you know, 'cause I'll bleed my heart out to show
And I won't let go
In front of your eyes, it falls from the skies
When you don't know what you're looking to find
In front of your eyes, it falls from the skies
When you just never know what you will find (what you will find)
I don't want this moment to ever end
Where everything's nothing without you
I want you to know
With everything I won't let this go, these words are my heart and soul
I'll hold on to this moment you know, 'cause I'll bleed my heart out to show
that I won't let go (I want you to know)
With everything I won't let this go, these words are my soul
I'll hold on to this moment you know, 'cause I'll bleed my heart out to show
that I won't let go.
-----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
I'm a train wreck in the morning
I'm a bitch in the afternoon
Every now and then without warning
I can be really mean towards you :(
I'm a puzzle yes indeed
Ever complex in every way
And all the pieces aren't even in the box
And yet you see the picture clear as day
I don't know why you love me
And that's why I love you
You catch me when I fall
Accept me, flaws and all
And that's why I love you
And that's why I love you
And that's why I love
I neglect you when I'm working -- in this case, when I'm not in the mood.
When I need attention I tend to nag
I'm a host of imperfection
And you see past all that
I'm a peasant by some standards
But in your eyes I'm a queen
You see potential in all my flaws
And that's exactly what I mean
I don't know why you love me
And that's why I love you
You catch me when I fall
Accept me, flaws and all
And that's why I love you
And that's why I love you
And that's why I love you
Don't know why you love me
And that's why I love you
Catch me when I fall
Accept me flaws and all
And that's why I love you
And that's why I love you
And that's why I love you
You, you, you
I'm sorry. for letting my anger out on you. I know it wasn't your fault. heck, I don't even know why I got so mad at you. I lost control... I felt like, urgh. I'm sorry. I'm out of words to say.
&when will you take me away on a balloon?
I'm done pretending.
♥ 4:43 PM
I just got back from
Juliana's house. cos
teacher Liza tutors us maths on Saturdays, so yeah. when I was on my way to her house, kami lintas our school kan tu. iatah I saw a playground somewhere near to the track :O and I was like, wheeeeeeeeeeeeeee~ playground! :D siuk ni kalau stayback :P hahahaha. so yeah, I'm uber more excited to go back to school. kalau p.e, bemain saja sana. kelaur jua paluh tu. :8D
oh yeah, I'm still fucked up with what happened last night. I can't get over it! macam apa. sial -_______-"
I'm planning on going to Jerudong Park later tonight with my cousins but some of them aren't available :( hmmm. I just hope it won't be cancelled. well, whether they're coming or not, I'm still going out! yeaaaaaaaaaaaaaayers! thank you mommy :8DAmal said the games aren't free but what I've heard from
kaka Bibie, katanya free. and ada badut. HAHAHAHAHA. omg I miss my friend :O I used to call her badut cos she thought of herself as a funny girl, iaaaaaaaaaatah! and ia obsessed with clowns. what a weirdo :P but I looove you. :D hehehehe.
I'll update later, okay?
I heard you're going too. lets bump in to each other!
&when will you take me away on a balloon?
Friday, March 26, 2010
above my standards.
♥ 8:46 PM
hey :)
two more days to go and we'll be going back to school. wheeeeeee~ I can't believe that I'm saying this but I'm actually pretty excited to go back to school and catch up with my studies. haha, mihir bunyinya. so not me. :O bukannya apa, my holiday macam.. sucky wah eh. :( aaaaaaaaaanyway, screw that!
I'm happy happy haaaaappy! :D sadang.
I've been feeling kind of blue dari tadi pagi. people have been asking me why. to be honest, me myself pun inda tau kenapa. weird, isn't it? maybe it's just one of those days. yeah... :( or maybe I have this weird depression syndrome :O hahahaha. kay.. adang.
I've noticed something.
Khairul have been offered to be a model more than once by those people in the agency whatever. payah jua ah to have a boyfriend like him. so good looking and everything. he comes in a package, to be exact. the body, the face, the height. everything :)
tunggu ah, I'm not bragging. the fact that I should be proud of it... err. I'm actually not. why?
I want him all to myself. not open to the public. tell me, is that too selfish of me to say that? :(
I'm sorry.........
I know I'm not supportive... forgive me, kay?
I love you. and
I miss yo
u so much....
p/s:
HAPPY 11TH BELATED BIRTHDAY TO MD KASYFI SHAFI'EE! ♥♥
-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
I'm totally confused. it's like they're against you being with me. I'm serioooooooously not satisfied with everything. I'm so tired of fighting for this thing we're having. I don't even know if this is going to last or not. I reeeeeeeally don't know how much more I can take. I can't handle any more pressure from silly things cemani. I know I shouldn't be thinking too much about this, but I can't help it! macam, palui wah paluuuuui!
&when will you take me away on a balloon?
Wednesday, March 24, 2010
don't "bye" me.
♥ 12:36 AM
have you watched
Phoebe In Wonderland? no I am NOT wrong. bukan Alice, tapi Phoebe. it's one heck of an awesome movie to watch. it's about this 9 year old who is obsessed with the tale
"Alice In Wonderland." when she's on stage, rehearsing for the little play in her school, she felt so at home. she felt like it is the only place where she can do anything she wants. she is in charge and no adults are there to boss them around. when she's off stage, she becomes a whole different person. she talks back, rude and all those shit.
it's really an emotional movie. I can reeeeeally relate to it. yknow, wanting to live in the fantasy world rather than to face reality. turns out that she actually had this syndrome thing, which explains her bad behaviour. hahahah, so, enough about that. :P
hey ho. :) i just realized that holidays are not always good. :( asal cuti, akhir tidur. teruk tarus sleeping patterns ku. hesh. :( aaaaand I can easily waste my time :( instead of belajar, buat hal yang nada faedah tah pulang. hahaha :D :(
I'm out of stories.
laaaaaaaaaaaaater.
&when will you take me away on a balloon?
Monday, March 22, 2010
holy cow!
♥ 9:25 PM
I haven't been updating lately, have I? my apology, loyal readers. *COUGHS! hahahaha!
the computer has broken down to some disease and I rarely get to use the laptop in the house, so yeah. it's reasonable, methinks. :P so,
HEEEEELLOOOOOOOOOO!!! :D I've been feeling down lately cos of several reasons which I think is not appropriate for me to list down in detail here. lets just say, it's something that keeps on happening over and over and oveeeer again! :( sigh.
but
thanks to my superman, he saved me from drowning to the whirlpool of shattered dreams and horrible nightmares. (what the hell?) one phone call made me stop from crying, that one call made me smile. that one call made my day a whole lot better. and as for today, my day started off awesomely. not as expected :) I received a few missed calls and texts, saying that it was urgent. he kinda made me panic..... :( but it was nothing :D
I love your morning calls, handsome. why are you so unpredictable?! >:( but that is what I love most about you. I wouldn't know what I would be expecting ahead of me, cos you have so many things in your head I just cant predict which move you're going to do next! esh. :( :P
I love you. :)
speaking of surprises... this thing I've been keeping to myself,.. I think it's getting worse. I don't know how to stop it from going on.
I'm torn. between. a. two.
&when will you take me away on a balloon?
Wednesday, March 17, 2010
galang mu aku tapau. :8)
♥ 7:53 PM
we had a little National Day celebration early in the morning for about, one hour. and it was awesome! aside from the fact that I had to bring this huge flag wherever I go and that I had to stand still as the sun faced me for the whole hour watching people perform and everything. it was great. :)
I went up to class after the function was over and just chilled sama dorang. stress ku tadi :( we made heart shapes out of coloured papers and wrote our names and nicks. banyak buah tumbuh tadi :D apple, blueberry, raspberry, watermelon and... apa lagi? :P I love 5B. :) not to forget, Amal and Nabillah too. i love you girls so much :)
we had the maths carnival at around, 9am? gila yooooo. crowded berabis wah. our booths arah along the corridor and macam inda banyak space for people to walk around on since banyak tables and benches. sheeesh! kenapa inda place the booths arah maharaja square? pasang kem, inda jua panas! daripada berasak asak bejalan. kan betamu pun inda bah muka muka kami ah. -_-"
after break, ada announcement kana suruh form 4&5s bertoalk ke dewan, mendangar ceramah. malas tah kuuuu! I so did no want to spend my last day of first term by listening to some talk. hahaha. so we didn't :) kana panggil pulang balik balik even sampai the HEP teachers aga arah the carnival but none of us seemed to care. :P I just wanted to spend my time with them :)
over all, the carnival was awesome. banyak students tried our games, i even made friends with some of them. even took pictures with some of them. I just realized that I have such cute juniors! :8) siuk lah tadi. jalan jalan sama.... dorang :) and thanks to Afwan for giving me the chocolate bar when I was starving. you saved my day! :P hahahaha. awkward moments but yeah. awesome!!!! :D
what was upsetting was that I had this little argument sama Amal. ada salah faham.... we even fought through it through facebook :( but everything's okay now. :') love you maal!
HAPPY HOLIDAYS, STUDENTS!
p.s.: if you trusted me, you wouldn't have gone mad. :(
&when will you take me away on a balloon?
Monday, March 15, 2010
the past remains its way.
♥ 8:16 PM
let me get some things STRAIGHT. you were the one who pushed me far away from your life. you weren't there when I needed you most, when I needed someone to talk to. I tried so hard to deal with it all and close the gap between me and you yet you seemed to like it better if we just kept the gap open. and we did. as much as I didn"t want to lose another friend, I did.. let go. :)it took me long enough to forget all those memories.damn right we were close, best friends and all those happy shit. but that was before you broke my heart. yeah I've hurted you in so many ways too, I admit. so maybe this is why we shouldn't be like how we used to be before. just like what you once said to me: for some reasons, it is better if we just stay apart. we're both tired of dramas and I'm so afraid of what might happen in the future. sudah tah eh ngalih ku ber emo. kata si
Emy A. Raz, inda baik ber emo ani. :D hahahaha.
---------------------------------------------------------------------
ICC was awesome :D we went there around 7am and stayed til 2pm. I know right, mengalih wah tu. walaupun inda buat apa apa, ngalih jua tu duduk duduk. hahaha. but yeeeah, I was fantascized by the some of the delegates. especially
delegate of ISRAEL and PAKISTAN. OMG I LOVE YOU HAHAHAHAHA :X
when we first sat down, kami semua bangang. but then it got interesting. some of the delegates were so cheeky by 'abusing' the microphones. I don't really want to detail too much but if you were there, inda rugi eh :D awal awal pulang saja tu. hahahah. cos it got serious in the end :(
we abused
Abie's,
Mimie's and
Wan's cameras. entah, beratus kali eh? :P
&when will you take me away on a balloon?
Sunday, March 14, 2010
you sing as my mood swings on the swing.
♥ 3:04 PM
hi :(
I'm not amused or fantascized by anything or anyone right now cos it's my first day of pms!! ugh. the first day is always the worst. my back is aching and my crankiness gets worse every minute. if you don't do as I say, I'd get mad or balistic and me myself don't like that. it's like I just described a monster :( :O
I'm currently commenting with my sister through facebook. macam inda dapat becakap saja kami ah, haha. but yeah, I'm so bored I could cry. urgh I hate pms! :'(
us Literature students will be having a little trip to the ICC to witness the ISB detae thingymajig. sampai pukul 2pm kali which is so gonna be long :O i mean, behapa saja tah kami tu? hope it's not gonna be too boring.
--------------------------------------------------------------
siuk eh today. I've received more than 2 short phone calls :P
"hello? bah laju." - one of my favourites. sejak bila bossy :P mwa, I love youuuu! :D
&when will you take me away on a balloon?
Thursday, March 11, 2010
:)
♥ 3:59 PM
he's home! :D alhamdullilah. :)
school was uber awesome tadi. we only got to study history and one period of combined since we had this counselling thing after break time. our group's counsellor was from SMSAB, and he was cool. namanya, Awang... Yahya. :) we were also visited by other counsellors iatah ada this one counsellor from SMB, Hajah Mal. aka, agnes monica. :p
in short, it was awesome. and yes, I am even more motivated! :D
&when will you take me away on a balloon?
Wednesday, March 10, 2010
minutes in heaven.
♥ 7:06 PM
bad news, he's still stuck in the hospital.good news? I was allowed to visit him :D :Dthat's all there is to it. :)
&when will you take me away on a balloon?
1:23am, wishing I was right next to you.
♥ 1:24 AM
I just got off the phone with him and I must say, I feel so relieved to hear his voice. :') I miss you so much sayang. yet at the same time, I am feeling s-c-a-r-e-d! sigh. balik tah dari sana asap, okay? go home and get some rest. :( I tried so hard to keep my tears from falling, keeping every tiny molecule inside so he won't have to worry about me. cos he shouldn't be worrying about me when he has himself to worry about :'( I really want you to go home sayang.. go home and sleep in your own bed. :( :( I really hope nothing bad will happen in the next few hours. Amin.
I'm sorry, but I can't get myself to even close my eyes for five complete minutes without worrying about you. thinking of how your condition is, how you're doing there, how you can manage to sleep without having my jacket tucked in your arms :( are you doing okay sayang? I hope you are :( please get well soon... I love you. :'(
&when will you take me away on a balloon?
Sunday, March 7, 2010
I love you.
♥ 6:56 PM
today was a fairytale. why? because you were there beside me :)
&when will you take me away on a balloon?
Muhd Khairul Hafiz Yusof. :D
♥ 12:18 AM
this photo were taken in
1994 kali. ;)
the year that you was born
sayang. :D
geng
aniq kali ah. :D
*high five aniq~ hehehe.
tapi ani gundul sikit saja. ;p
bukan si '
lipstick' ni yang eh :(
inda pernah pakai ee!
walaupun my lips nampak merah banar arah photo ani.
HAHAHAHA. tapi masih sexy kan? :p
cuba teka, mana satu si
MKHY?? :D
p.s, I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!! <3 <3
-bubu =D
&when will you take me away on a balloon?
Saturday, March 6, 2010
YES? NO?
♥ 9:48 PM
so! I was giving mama a foot massage while talking about school. mama asked me about every single subject. what I got for the tests? was it good enough? why did I fail? do I want to add more subjects? what should I take for form six. it was all.... educational talk. I like that :)
so, mama asked me to take two extra subjects.
ECONOMICS & GEOGRAPHY! grr. I couldn't say no to her, cos I want to make my mama proud of her little girl :) so, yeah. she'll be writing a letter to the school about this. so I guess I'm gonna take tuition for the subjects lah? hahahaha, hooookay lah. mudahan saja I can manage to get credits for both of the subjects. I'm willing to take the risk! :D
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaanyway. I think I should be off to bed :D karang call :) yeaaaaay! can't wait to have a looooong midnight conversation with you sayang.
I love you!jangan lupa upload '
lipstick' :p mwah!
&when will you take me away on a balloon?
Friday, March 5, 2010
I'm a total sucker for Muhd Khairul Hafiz Yusof ♥
♥ 7:02 PM
I found some of his photos arah Bruneian Taekwondo's page. these photos below were taken during the funfair held at the business school. I must say, he looked so.... :D :D :D :D sexy.
I don't like this :( but he still looked so.. mouthwatering ;p
this is frickin torture. :( remind me not to let him come for training again :(
:(
I guess that's allllllllllll. well not really, I just chose my favourite ones of the whole 333 photos uploaded. :D
by the way,
good luck on your first day in Maktab Duli tomorrow :)
&when will you take me away on a balloon?
changes.
♥ 6:37 PM
2 months before.
2 months after.
see the changes? :O
&when will you take me away on a balloon?
Wednesday, March 3, 2010
unlike any other :')
♥ 6:54 PM
28 days left to our one year anniversary! ♥
"A guy out there was meant to be the love of your life, your best friend, your soul mate, the one you can tell your dreams to.
He'll smile at you, but he'll never laugh at your heart.
He'll brush the hair out of your eyes.
Send you flowers when you least expect it.
He'll stare at you during the movies, even though he paid $8 to see it.
He'll call to say goodnight or just cause he is thinking of you.
He'll look in your eyes and tell you, you're the most beautiful girl in the world,
and for the first time in your life, you'll believe it."
ring a bell? :)
P.S. I Love You!!!!!!!!!!! :D :D
&when will you take me away on a balloon?